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Change of Space
Out like a Lion, Welcome to Virgo season.
Don’t you just love the high energy, shining Vibe of Leo season? It’s warm and vibrant and busy with growth, ripening and the first harvest (not necessarily a harvest of food, could be reaping some benefits of something else sewn.)
Did you notice yourself connecting more to your own sun sign archetypes?
I sure did, I am a Virgo sun, I noticed a lot of self improvements, weeding and burning away aspects of myself no longer needed. Lucky me, I get 2 full consecutive months of leaning into my sun sign.
Welcome Virgo Season.
Virgos get the bad reputation of being overly critical, and yes, they (we) are always working on improving themselves or others, I assure you, they are more critical of themselves than we are of anyone or anything else. You see we are born with perfection expectations, we see where we are and where we could be in the same breath and we are always raising that bar of expectation. Of course, perfection is not an attainable goal, but Virgos are relentless.
Virgos love organization, schedules, checklists, because well, how can they get all of the things done to their liking without such attention to details?
As a Virgo myself, I know we are forever the student, we love learning but we also love sharing what we have learned with others.
For many years I’ve heard Virgo as a “servant” and that never really resonated with me. Steven Forrest has introduced me to a new term “craftsperson.” I love this because Virgos love to perfect their craft and it to be shared for the benefit of others. *I have never officially trained under Steven Forrest, I’ve just studied as much of his works as I have found*
As. Virgo, my skill of astrology, I am crafting a book to put into the world with the hopes of helping others! *finally the Virgo “servant” resonates!
But speaking of Steven Forrest, he is a mentor, teacher, and someday I hope to mention him and his teachings in my writings, passing on what he’s taught. That previous sentence is Virgoan- student, teacher, mentor and a acknowledgement of such skills. Lineage- he passed the knowledge to me and I’m passing it to you. It’s a beautiful passing of useful information that will carry on and grow and carry on.
Enough chattering out of me, oh whoops, I almost forgot Communication. Being ruled by Mercury, Virgo is known for communication!
Welcome to Virgo season, a time of learning and teaching, sharing skills, meeting mentors (or being the mentor,) leaves changing colors as we walk the edge of summer into autumn.
Happy trip around the Sun Virgos!
ps- stay tuned for the Mercury Retrograde in Virgo post coming soon.
What is your Sun sign?
The Sun is in Leo, most of y’all know that.
Most people think that’s “just a special time for Leo’s,” but did you know that because Leo is ruled by the Sun, it also shines a light on whatever YOUR sun sign is?
It’s true! Leo season is a special time of year for each and everyone of us to RISE & SHINE in whatever area of our life our Sun is in!
So Shine!
As for my Virgo sun, it’s really asking me to get grounded. To narrow my focus. To share my knowledge.
To know me, would be to know I have tons of things going on all of the time. I’m an affiliate to many things and also sell things. To save space you can see my links here.
Truth be told I’m a horrible salesperson, but I thought having all of these things I do would help me help more people. I share all things I love and love all things I share but…
Reality check in 3…2..
I’ve got so much going on I cannot fully focus on anything and therefore am not really helping many people at all.
Leo wants each of us to SHINE in our authentic self, especially in the areas of our Sun sign.
Take a look at the image above, look for the tips of your Sun shine, does it resonate with an area you already know you need to strengthen? What can you do to step into your SHINE of your Sun Sign?
And since the heat is turned up, what areas of your life do you see are burning away, no longer needed?
What this means for me is my writing and astrology will be my focuses. Yes I’ll still talk about mental and chronic illness because these things are what makes me, me.
Sending you Leo Sun, Leo New moon blessings.
#CosmicJourney with the CosmicGypsy
To color or not to color- emotional hair.
Let’s talk hair.
Did you know that is is common for women (mostly) with BPD and/or Bipolar to change their hair with their mood?
I’m serious! Today I recounted the times I’ve dyed my hair Red. Each of those times I had no control of something painful going on around me.
I’m not talking a little painful, I’m talking the kind that hurts so bad you distract yourself from feeling it!
A couple months ago a dear friend began the last months of his life. I’m a thousand miles away and couldn’t even sit with him at those last moments.
Not even realizing the emotional connection, I dyed my platinum to red. And hated it but I didn’t know what to do.
My friend passed a couple of days ago.
I am currently in the process of going back to platinum.
My point is, we may do drastic things when we are not in control of the emotions we are feeling. We don’t even realize the connection because our brains make the drastic thing seem so logical and unrelated.
The first year of diagnosis I made a deal with myself that I wouldn’t dye my hair any color except versions of blond. I dealt with my emotions. Since the end of that year my hair has been many colors, fallen out due to the vir us and a thyroid crash.
Today I am making that deal again. Only various blond colors for the next year and after that it must be a planned coloring not impulse.
Next time someone makes a joke about coloring their hair when life is out of control, be compassionate, they probably are not actually joking.
Splitting is Complicated
Splitting is Complicated
Last Saturday morning I woke up like any other morning.
As the day went on I realized I was angry at little things, frustrated by inconveniences, and taking things personally. By the end of Saturday night I was in tears because I was sure my “*favorite person” was ignoring me.
Favorite person is the person that someone with BPD relies on for comfort, security, and reassurance. Usually a best friend, family member, or romantic partner, this person gets the best and worst and BPD behaviors.
Fast forward to Friday- today and someone says “breathe” about something I had been obsessing over all week.
That one word- “breathe.” Sucked in facts like metal to a magnet.
I had split– I don’t know if it was a Dissociative Split, a BPD split, or a Bipolar split, but the meanings are all similar- when my mood flops from one polarity to the other. Everything this either really good or really bad. Anger & rage or sadness & depression, or happy & energetic. Often times obsessing on something, using it as a focal reason to have my world spiraling.
Here’s the deal though, if I’m aware of the splitting I have tools to make it easier on myself and those around me.
I call it “back to basics”
1. Am I hydrated?
2. Is my diet clean of sugar & caffeine?
3. Am I sleeping enough?
4. Am I on a routine?
5. Is the weather changing?
And this time I was way off basics, I had been doing so good i didn’t notice me as I slid into old habits.
I wasn’t doing my meditations, my breathing exercises, or any of my skills.
No wonder I split.
Now to get back to basics.
The thing with splitting, it gets a bad rap because people around us think we are being manipulative. We aren’t. We aren’t even aware of what is going on, just that we are hurting, angry, excited. Etc.
Please be patient with us. We deeply feel the emotions we are feeling. Stick to your boundaries though.
Being aware of splitting helps the person who is splitting and those around them.
Blessings to you on this cosmic journey!
Saturdays astrology~ Full moon in Sagittarius, moon square Saturn, moon trine Mars, moon sextile Pluto.
As of writing this, becoming aware~ Moon in Pisces, sextile Jupiter, Mercury sextile Neptune
Mercury Direct
The story isn’t over yet though, retrograde was a chance to see something in a new way, to release old ways, to redo something.
So the big question here is what did you learn, heal, do in a new way? This question is BIG because over the next 3 weeks we will once again be exposed to the lesson, did we do it right or learn after the fact?
Some things I seen were greed with unintended victims, power struggles with unintended participants, suppression of the pain/ anger then unintended recipients, lots of misunderstandings, a lot of releasing.
Depending on the area of your chart involved, is where you would have seen it the most, keep in mind, you also may have played a role in someone else’s chart placements, so seeing many areas of life effected is normal.
With that said, it takes Mercury a couple of days to get back into full forward momentum, be patient with yourself and others.
Today, I spent the day talking to doctors, nurses, and office staff about missing bone scan data (Mercury) about prescriptions not sent out (Mercury) about a horrible lab experience, reorganizing lab work to (redo) Mercury.
So I definitely am feeling forward movement once again.
I’d love to hear your experiences?
Random writings. A Battle Within
A Battle Within
Tears brim my eyes.
Fears brim my mind.
A battle within proceeds without permission.
My eyes see but the images get distorted.
Laughter all around, yet all around me is silence. I am alone in their world and mine.
What am I doing here? Why do I have to endure the battle within.
Get up.
Walk away.
By the time they notice you are gone, I will be long gone.
No more battles to wager.
No longer lonely in my own life.
No longer a burden or drama mama.
Just silence.
What am I doing here?
No place I’d rather be.
This battle is within, wherever I am, there I am.
Just me.
Alone.
And this battle within.
Stay here.
This moment will pass.
I will feel love again.
Someone will notice.
Someone will care.
This moment will pass.
It is not me, it is the world.
A friend in transition from this world.
A friend with two faces.
Promises broken.
Respect not returned.
Time taken not shared.
Tug of war.
A heart that breaks is a heart that felt.
Shhh. Listen.
It is not personal. You really are less alone than you think.
It is a battle within.
Can this battle I win?
Intuitive Muscle Building
Listen
How often do you listen to your intuition? More often than you realize I’m sure.
This morning I needed to go to town for a haircut and groceries.
I kept stalling.
Finally I pushed myself out the door. A nagging “not yet” would not quit.
I backed out of the driveway and put the car in drive.
“Not yet” got louder.
I pushed on the brakes. I sat there.
Now I’m sitting in the house writing this.
I may never know why “not yet,” but I know that my racing heart has slowed and calmness is back.
Did you know that the more you listen to your intuition, the more you hear? It’s like a muscle. Work it. Strengthen it.
Life becomes magical and flows when we listen.
But let’s say you have a room full of people and you are talking but no one listens. After a while you will stop talking.
So start small. Get a little notebook and jot down when you “get a hit” of insight, did you listen? What happened by listening or not?
Again, it’s a muscle, the more you work it the stronger it will get.
True Retrograde style
True Retrograde Style is not a bubble bursting in our life. Its a bubble of expansion, healing, and getting back on track.
Are you noticing it too? The Mercury Retrograde moments of misunderstandings, mechanical malfunctions, and anything RE?
Over the weekend I had more than one misunderstanding in conversations where my intent was misunderstood and possibly vice versa.
This morning I had a consultation appointment and internet connection completely failed and the appointment was cancelled/postponed. Then back on but showing no internet even though there was a connection.
Then of course the Pluto retrograde is a deep dive into things we have suppressed and also aspects of our selves that have just been hidden even from ourselves till now.
Are you seeing people changes careers even for less money to do what their soul desires?
This deep dive into our shadows goes all the way to October. But do not fret, it is a time of transformation, a deep reflection of what truly matters even if it means breaking traditions.
So many endings and new beginnings. Releasing ways that no longer serves or align with us. It is soul deep introspection, the transformations will not always be comfortable, especially if we put up resistance.
How this effects and affects each of us individually will depend on the place in our natal chart that these retrogrades are taking place. (Mercury=Taurus & Pluto= Aquarius, look to the house that Taurus is in & Aquarius is in.)
For me Taurus is in the 10th, the house of Career; what makes me happy to be doing/being seen for, as long as I navigate it successfully. Otherwise I will feel meaningless, like I have no contribution to the world. And funny because that is the house Mercury is traveling through. Communication- here I am writing again.
Pluto in Aquarius however is transiting my 7th & 8th houses (placidus) house of Marriage & house of death. Let’s just say the bedroom life of my marriage is getting spicy. And. I’m dealing with the pending loss of a dear friend.
It just amazes me to see the astrology so clearly.
Reemergence
Reemergence
True to Mercury Retrograde style I am in RE- mode.
Renewal.
Rebirth after Reexamination is leading to this reemergence.
I am reemerging after a significant amount of time, I could go on for many posts to catch you up, maybe I’ll sprinkle that in moving forward, but today I’m am just moving forward.
Rather you are new here or have been following from the beginning, today you get to decide if you’d like to be on this journey with me. A Cosmic Journey.
Reemerging I am bringing newness to my rawness. I will be discussing Mental Illness, Chronic Illness, and astrology and often how they are all related.
How can they be related, you may be wondering.
That is the Cosmic space I will be exploring.
I can see now in areas of my own natal astrology chart where the “potential” for #Bipolar (and other mental illness) are present.
Shadows of certain houses/ planets/ etc are strong, intercepted houses and planets make me say “oh I see that in my life.”
Not only will I be journeying through the “where” but also HOW I can better work the energies.
This is where you come in, you may not know of areas of your life having such effects, but knowledge is power, and power can be so healing.
The knowledge is like getting a permission slip from the Universe to love and accept yourself as your were meant to be, after all- your natal astrology chart is the blueprint of life.
The Universe is generous though, because not only are you getting this amazing permission slip, but also the guidance to traverse the path laid out.
It’s amazing.
It’s freeing.
It’s healing.
It is self love.
So welcome to the Reemergence of my Cosmic Journey!
#astrology #bipolar #mentalillness #chronicpain #natalchart #CosmicJourney
Jody Delva~ 