Call it hope, call it dumb, call it whatever you wish, but the reality is sinking in! I guess I kept hoping that one day the right doctor would find the right diagnosis and the treatment would cure me and I’d got back to the healthier version of me.
I guess I didn’t realize, not truly accept that having multiple chronic illnesses truly means that I won’t get better, that the doctors mission is just help me find quality of life!
I kept going to the doctors expecting a cure, it wasn’t till last night and truly today, that there is no cure! This is my reality!
Im not sure why I thought a cure, removal of all symptoms was the expected result.
This reality feels like a ton of bricks loaded on me, yet at the same time I feel a peace to it, acceptance of you will.
It’s a perspective changer.
Starting now, the energy I do have is going to be used more wisely!